Lamentations

I'm really desperate now because both my knees are angry(which rarely occurs) and my left knee is being mysterious with the origin of pain(it feels referred, or spread from somewhere else). My fugging fingers are damn annoying and as i was telling Margaret, i feel like chopping it off... *grr* My pinky finger has gone so bad i cannot straighten it and can only remain at about 120 degrees to my palm. *headdesk* My middle finger is starting to follow the pinky too... *sigh* I'm just hoping that my symptoms don't disappear next Tuesday and Wednesday, cos' if it does, then everything that happened in the last 2 months will not have clinically occured simply because my blood tests are normal and no swelling can be seen. That would be totally fucked up man...

The pending pandemic isn't good news at all, though i'm not the least bit worried. The economic crisis together with this imminent pandemic doesn't spell too good for the coming year and the next. And i was wondering what will happen when we go for our clinicals? (I know it sounds superfical in view of the deaths in Mexico, but i'm just trying to relate it to our present context) I don't want to be stuck under an N95 mask... I will hyperventilate man... Reminds me i'm due back at NUH twice next week, and i'm so going to have to waste my time queueing up just trying to enter the damned building. What the fuck man. As if i don't have to wait when i'm inside... *bleah*



Fug man. The things i ordered from Nordstrom have not been ordered afterall and i'm super crossed about it. *grrr* Just gotta wait for another chance! MAC and BB!!! *sighs*