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Been bored to tears lately now that holidays are here.

I've conquered Ion, but i think it has been overrated. Too big a land area, lousy utilisation of space. From L1-L4, everything's so spread out, you spend most of the time trying to get from one shop to another. Everything's in the perimeter- BAD. I'd rather walk in Paragon really. B1-B4, too confusing and cramped. I think i must've been an idiot trying to look for shops to window-shop at. NEVER AGAIN(unless i'm meeting friends there, or going to shops exclusive to this pathetic mall). Hah. I gave up and shopped at Wisma, NAC and Wheelock Place. Hah. Borders and Kinokuniya= <3

I did the most absurd thing by renting Scrubs season 3 and paying $18 for it when i watched it 6 months ago. Why did i keep thinking that i haven't watched it! $18 is not alot, but it is a lot wasted if i'm not watching it. HOW DUMB CAN I GET?!

Been working on our performance piece on Sunday and Tuesday. Pretty upset with myself... I've been given a chance to dance alone(not solo) just for a little bit, and i can't even do it properly. Getting too self-conscious and consumed over how retarded i look, and how disgustingly fat i am. :( I want this to work out, but my face doesn't work with me regarding such stuff. But for something 'zen'(as my teacher describes it), hmm... I just don't know how to make it work... And i think i look freaking retarded doing anything that's modernish. Don't know how to make it look even decent... (Has always been a problem yeah.. I think i even look better doing hip-hop) *aargh* It's coming in less than 2 weeks, and i bet i'm gonna beat myself up over it. HOW NOW BROWN COW?!


Medical-Surgical Nursing textbook is now my best friend. Regretted not buying it earlier(when the semester started). It has everything about med-surg! Just like how i heart my Oxford Handbook of Clinical Medicine(i know i'm nowhere near medical student standard, but hey! i have my right to know things beyond my scope ok!). Trying to think of how to fit tons of info in a small notebook for clinicals(a PDA would solve that! but good ol' paper is the best!).


I'd love to declare myself in a full state of remission, but i can't. I'm very close to that though. So perhaps in sub-remission... Been getting problematic fingers, ankle, and today, wrist(which have been so good lately). Not complaining though, because comparing to what i was months ago, this is considered very good already!