Something new

Something new again. My right 1st carpometacarpal joint is the latest kid on the RA block. The last few newly afflicted joints came during my massive flare last year(like my hips, tarsometatarsal and 2 MCPs). I don't know if it's a sign that the flare is impending, but it does feel so. Stiffness is increasing, and joint counts have been on the upward trend, if not, on a more frequent basis.

The thumb is INDEED a very important finger. Having an inflamed thumb joint(not exactly, it's nearer to the wrist, but because the thumb's range of motion starts from there), makes doing anything with hands, a painful affair. It's not all that bad, but enough to notice. To think i thought i overused a muscle. Hah.


Anyways, skills test is up at 4pm tomorrow. What can i say? That i'm terribly afraid and scared. I'm ultimately afraid of failure. Injections is a 'high casualty rate' part of skill tests because of asepsis and injecting technique. I'm 2nd to go(and prolly first to the go in with girl #1).

It's do or die. I'd jump with elation if i passed(i don't care for the grade). The consequences are unthinkable if i failed.

I just need to live through tomorrow.