Dolour

I know i still want it badly. My heart aches whenever i think about it, about how it's quite idealistic, and how i don't have the intellect and the right attitude to do it. Maybe by God's good grace and sheer determination, but it'll take miracles and pigs to fly for it to happen. And in my heart i respect and admire all women in this particular profession. Just because they epitomise what i feel is the almost perfect ideal of being a woman.

And right now it is still dolourific. Maybe in 10 years time, i'll be closer to it. Nevermind if i attain it when i'm 40 or 50. Won't it be nice to fulfil your childhood dream?