2010

2010 is here. So let's look back at 2009:

` 2009 was a very challenging year, because i had such a good 2008.

` Sure i found my identity, or at least i stopped searching for one, but i did get imprinted with new ideas. New ideas that harm me, and not for the better.

` I think i did not accomplish any of of '09 resolutions. Not even as simple as doing my grade 8 exam. Nor bringing up my fucking low GPA.

` Painful year. 3/4 of '09 was spent in great pain and frustration. Never again, i hope.

` I've received a few affirmations about myself as a nursing student. It boosted my confidence, but now, it's rock bottom again.

` I had my own classes to teach, and got good $ for it. Teaching pays well yes? :)

` The worse? I'm even FATTER.

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Now for 2010; I don't ask for much actually;

` Lose weight.(I'm guessing this is common.)

` Hopefully to stop my self-harming ways. (Don't worry. I don't cut myself.)


` Pull up my GPA for once; Impossible things like making it to Worldskills SG and OIPP.

` Keep dancing- i've been on almost a 4 month hiatus.

` Keep evil RA in control! I'm doing well since SSZ took effect. Hoping to keep it that way even after stopping meds. Seriously, if the vicious cycle starts again, i'll be on the verge of killing myself.

` Keep my temper and anger in check. I've been working on it, so i hope it'll be better. Also with my gap. Know when to shut it!

` Go to church!

` Basically, if everything fails, i just need to either live through the year, or die. I don't want to suffer.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
(Though i'm less than optimistic about 2010, other than the fact that i'll be nearer to 21, and graduation.)