:(

Beating myself up over something that i already did is senseless. Yet we still do those regrettable things... How satirical...

The only reason why i did 2 ballet classes today was because i wanted to push myself, though i was unfit owing to missing classes for 2 weeks. Who knew... I gave up time and time again because either i couldn't do it, or i was deathly afraid of falling(paranoid no?)... Inexcusable i know. Completely irrational, exhausted, in pain, and cowardice... Hence... Misconstrued again??? Sadly, yes.

I feel like a pathetic loser, and that i don't deserve to be a ballet student. *pfft* *bashes self again*