*sob*

Cry me a river.

Things are getting worse. Keeping secrets and hiding things is just too emotionally taxing.

I fucking hate crying because my eyes swell up alot. I already have 4 metal spoons in the freezer now.

Should i just try my hand at BCLS assessment? I have the option to skip it and not be certified on medical grounds. I was told that it wouldn't affect my employability, but i highly doubt so. I don't like the idea of being a nurse who has to stand aside during code blue because of not being certified. It doesn't make cow sense.